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We met over an online conversation about malfunctioning computer keyboards. At first, I didn’t understand that her complaint was not about regular computer hacking, because it didn’t seem possible to me that someone could actually hack a keyboard itself in the normal way. It took a little back and forth before I realized that she was actually talking about a deeper, more sinister kind of hacking—the kind that could only be possible at a different level of reality. More about this later.
Eugenia was, I think, a little annoyed at my obliviousness right at that moment, but then, I’d only just met her, was not familiar with her work and her special, unique way of thinking about, what for me, were the regular problems of hardware that acts up. After all, the only time my keyboard has ever acted strangely was after I spilled something on it.
I had been investigating UFOs and other paranormal experiences for almost 40 years—most of my life, and I’d never heard of Eugenia until encountering Andy Colvin’s interview with her in his Mothman’s Photographer series. This is not a testament to me at all, although Eugenia was perfectly fine with her relative anonymity in the paranormal world. Eugenia preferred, I think, to regard herself as more of a poet and playwright than a ghost or UFO investigator, an artist rather than an occultist. But, in truth she was all those things and a mother and decent person as well. And, being out of the limelight also ensures that one is less a target—and she seemed to be a too frequent target nonetheless.
Eugenia died suddenly on December 17, 2013. I had only just met her in person about four months previously, although we had had several online chats, about protection runes and Sufism. Once she realized that I’d figured out what she’d been talking about with the keyboard business and determined that my brand of Sufism is not of the dark variety, she’d become pretty open, relatively speaking, with sharing odds and ends of her life in Woodstock. Her passing was a shock to everyone who knew her, we who had become used to seeing her in her old neighborhood and in the FB group Mothy Talk which is administered by Andy Colvin.
In fact, I found out about her passing only a couple of days before her Memorial Service, which was organized by the Catskills artist, Christina Varga, a local Woodstock comrade of hers at the time, and to whom many, if not most of her paintings, both finished and unfinished, were bequeathed. At the Memorial service, I was honored to be asked to read a couple of Eugenia’s poems that were about her paranormal experiences. I had never read her poetry before and was very pleasantly surprised at how complex, multi-layered and deeply ironic they were as they described the scary wonder of what it means to be involved with the strange and unknown realities that comprise what we call, “the paranormal.”
But really, I shouldn’t have been amazed. In the weeks, and now years that have followed Eugenia’s passing, I’ve come to discover just how original her thinking on the paranormal really was. If one goes back to her very first book Congratulations: The UFO Reality, which is actually a deeply felt and extremely “Yankee-style” sarcasm that you get only after reading the book, and if one recalls this book is written in the mid-seventies, it is really astonishing that she was able to figure out so much in so little time about the relationship between UFOs, states of consciousness and psychic phenomena, religious zealotry, occultism and secret government operations, synchronicity, prophecy, creativity and the effects of UFO experiences on the private lives of individuals. All of that is there, already, in her first book. Literally no one else would start making these kinds of connections for about three decades of paranormal research.
During this time, she was also writing plays that would be produced at the renowned avant-garde venue, Theater of the New City, in New York City, alongside the works of Sam Shepard, Tim Robbins and award-winning companies such as Bread and Puppet Theatre AND having occasional correspondence and conversation with the likes of Jacques Vallee during his Messenger of Deception period. She was also reading technical books on electro-magnetism, engineering and theoretical physics and writing papers that she would later present at academic conferences in the quest to formulate what she called the “Fluidice Matrix,” her own understanding of how consciousness creates, controls and can transform expressions of matter. And to make ends meet, she would give involved psychic readings when she wasn’t working at this or that odd job. This while trying to raise a young son, navigating a difficult divorce and trying to live a normal life. A true Renaissance woman indeed.
For Eugenia, one of the most interesting aspects of Congratulations centered around what happened to the bulk of the printed copies. The book had been published by a small California press, Crescent Books, and not long after it became available, the warehouse where her books were stored, the connected offices of Crescent and the apartment building of the man who had published her work all burned in fires that were apparently started simultaneously, with the apartment fire having been set to enter the building from all four directions. What books were saleable and relatively undamaged were sent to her in New York and Crescent went out of business.
Eugenia expressed an interest in trying to produce a new edition of Congratulations, because she came to believe that there was something about the book which was very upsetting to “forces” that might oppose her approach. As a result, for the most part, with few exceptions, she self-published the bulk of her paranormal material and only submitted poetry, academic papers, and the occasional investigation to journals. She didn’t even try to get the “established UFO presses” to notice her much. Still, she painted, wrote and corresponded with others tirelessly. In fact, every time I get online to do a little bit more research about her, more material emerges.
About six weeks ago, I experienced a flurry of synchronistic events that would have made Eugenia proud. In fact, I’m not entirely sure she didn’t have something to do with them. I’ve been putting together a book on paranormal investigators and experiencers in the Hudson Valley and wanted to include something about her because she had chosen to made the Hudson Valley her home and a focus of some of her investigations. I didn’t have much material about her, other than our conversations and some interview material collected by myself and Andy Colvin in his books. So, I decided to do a little online digging.
Almost immediately, I pulled up a Craigslist notice out of New York City (about two hours from where I live) that was only four days old, which was asking the public for any possible information about Eugenia. I thought that was odd and interesting and so got on FB and messaged a couple of individuals who had known Eugenia and were also interested in collecting her materials to archive, to let them know about this person out of the City. Well, it turned out that one of them knew this person in New York City, and so now, at least 2-3 of us are working in our spare time to mine her materials out of oblivion and begin the process of making a memorial to her by keeping her work available, out there, in print or at least available in some fashion. All of these contacts fell together in less than 45 minutes. It was like, once I looked, I found that someone else was looking, and vice versa. This is exactly the kind of thing that Eugenia would have loved.
Luckily, Jeffrey has given me some space on the Church of Mabus website to share Eugenia’s work and paranormal legacy with a wider audience, and I intend to start doing that on a semi-regular basis. I plan to thoroughly review what books and articles of hers I can locate (some are easier than others and I’ve found a few already) and share those ideas for your consideration. Eventually, Ben Roylance (the New York City guy) hopes to determine how to get the rights to her books (including her plays and novels) so that we can make her work available to an even larger audience, and so she can get the recognition for she deserves. And if any of you in the COM universe have additional information about her and her work, you can contact me though Church of Mabus or my website, adabstar.com. Or join our fresh, new FB group Fluidice Magick: Life and Work of Eugenia Macer-Story to share your information, stories, and join us in our quest.